Blood Ran Cold

V1.
Plunge your sword, into my chest
At least my mind would be put to rest
How could you say those words to her
You fucking coward, you dont deserve

Im cracking from within
With this smile on my face
Struggling to breathe
as I slowly bleed..I Scream

Cho.
Why don't you ever try?
Tell me not to cry
I mean nothing to you
So just leave me behind
I know all your lies
I know all your lies
You hide nothing from me
You make my blood run cold
(my blood run cold)

V2.
Pretend for me that we're okay
No one knows what happened yesterday
Secret kept, its safe with me
But I cant hide that I'm bleeding

Im cracking from within
With this smile on my face
Struggling to breathe
as I slowly bleed..I Scream

Cho.
Why don't you ever try?
Tell me not to cry
I mean nothing to you
So just leave me behind
I know all your lies
I know all your lies
You hide nothing from me
You make my blood run cold
(my blood run cold)

Bridge:
I had given my all
You just threw it away
I trusted you with everything
How could you do this to me?
When I read those words
you had written to her
I thought I would die..and
my blood ran cold
my blood ran coooooold....

Snap

Snap.
Snap.
Snap.

Just like that. Friends say something right.
Something wrong.
But we all come around in the end.

Just because someone snaps
Doesn't mean they aren't your friend.

100%

I surrender.
Growing closer day by day
I was blinded by our friendship
Yet today I remove those blinders and hand over my heart.

Do you have any I idea how crazy I am about you?
You always have the right words to say.
You love me and my imperfections.
You gave 110% when I gave 50%

Swallow

V.1
There is only room for one here now
Two is a crowd
It hurts to say
You were never mine anyway
Don't spit out my words
I know you belong to her

Break away from me
Give me room, just backaway
These tattered wings will fly
Fill these lungs with fresh air

I know longer want to care
I know longer want to care

Cho.
Pretty bird in a cage
So full of rage
flapped my wings
hoping I could fly away
Locked under a key
filled with pain inside
Am I yours? (am I yours?)
or am I mine?
Just swallow my key
with my hopes and dreams...
I hope you fucking choke and die

V2.
Sickened inside
I want to vomit you out
This little bird
has found you out
Little lies, little lies
All are revealed in time

Say your in love with this pretty bird
I know you can't wait
Replace me now, its my dying fate
"You really miss her, see yourself with her"
Fine, just stay the fuck behind
I will take these tattered wings and fly

I know longer want to care
I know longer want to care

Cho.
Pretty bird in a cage
So full of rage
flapped my wings
hoping I could fly away
Locked under a key
filled with pain inside
Am I yours? (am I yours?)
or am I mine?
Just swallow my key
with my hopes and dreams...
I hope you fucking choke and die

Questions, out of order

May 11, 2007 - Friday
Questions, out of order
Current mood: confused
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

Question why
Because I only imply
That things will go planned
Be better in time

Question when
Because the end is inevitable
Or is it my bitterness
That shall prevail?

Question how
Because life seems impossible
Dreams are only dreams
Or is it up to me to make them real?

Question where
Because I am leaving
You may not go
But my tunnel leads to Cali, a new home

Question Who?
That is the real question
Who do you think you are?
Who do I think I am, to change your mind.

It's only a matter of time
Only a matter of time.

Bittersweet Dreams

May 11, 2007 - Friday

Bittersweet Dreams Current mood: hopeful
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

V1.
Tracing my fingers along the edge of the bed
Fear creeps in, "what is happening?"
Soft white sheets, hang like clouds over me
Praying this will fade, draw me closer each day

Remember how I said we were just friends?
Everyone knew, before I ever did
So vulnerable at times, need you more than ever
Forever, forever (together)

Am I dreaming now? No more tears to weep,
Finally happy now, as I drift into the deep blue…(sleep)

Cho.
Bittersweet Dreams
Whatever it may be
I can finally breathe, now that you are next to me
Don't awake me now, whisper quietly
Share this vision, a decision (too good to be true?)
Id rather die in this dream, then to awake to my reality
And find that I don't have you

V2.
Why would I ever let this go?
Leaving you behind, was never a thought of mine
And I knew, when I met you
I could never let you out that door…

Am I dreaming now? No more tears to weep,
Finally happy now, as I drift into the deep blue…(sleep)

Cho 2.
Bittersweet Dreams
Wherever we may be
I can finally breathe, knowing you're next to me
Will you hold me now? Whisper quietly
Share this vision, a decision (too good to be true?)
Id rather die in this dream, then to awake to my reality
And find that I don't have you

Am I dreaming now? No more tears to weep,
Finally happy now, as I drift into the deep blue…(sleep)
Hush now don't say a word
Lets dream

Supernatural High

Supernatural High/Song for Kyle Current mood: high Category: Dreams and the Supernatural


V1. Is this a fantasy?
You've completely captivated me
Enchanting smile, locked into your eyes
I knowing this feeling, I cant hold it back, or fight it
Never imagined it would happen like this
More than a state of bliss '
Can no longer dismiss
That I've fallen so hard for you

Cho. Wild angel, I am losing control
Overboard, Not afraid anymore to fall
Craving you, sustain this hunger inside
Mend these wings, bring me into the light
Unleash this soul, don't let me go..for You're my Supernatural High

V2.
Out of my realm When you entered the room
Eyes on me, yet… I was solely fixed on you
Can't cast aside Im bewitched by your charm
Take the key now, dizzying how
How can this be, happening to me now?
Damn you make me lose my mind

Cho. Wild angel, I am losing control
Overboard, Not afraid anymore to fall
Craving you, sustain this hunger inside
Mend these wings, bring me into the light
Unleash this soul, don't let me go..for You're my Supernatural High

Bridge Melt over me, draw me close
Overwhelmed, don't wake me if I am dreaming
Give me a fix, that will never die Supernatural high, just take me high
How could I ever pass this by.. when… I know that Im in love with you….

*I love you Kyle -Charlene Aka BBKF

The Battlefield of the Mind

February 28, 2007 - Wednesday
The Battlefield of the Mind Current mood: numb Category: Blogging

V1.
I don't know that you will ever understand
When it comes to me, its always more complicated
If I could I would drown away these fears
With just a xanax and some wine
Just bleed until my blood runs dry
Anything to numb this torture that I feel inside

Cho:
I think Im fighting you
Yet I make no move
Angered with myself, yet I have no cure
Its flowing through my veins
Its hell to feel this way
Keep searching for my place
But here is where I find (I reside)
On the Battlefield in my mind

V2.
I'm unsettled in my own anguish
Yet I have never been so fulfilled like this before
I feel as though these wounds
Weren't always meant to sting, but I wonder if this is my reality
Do you remember what I had said?
Was it burning to your ears? To hear those words you had to hear?
I only wonder now, and hope that I can make better somehow..

Cho:
I think Im fighting you
Yet I make no move
Angered with myself, yet I have no cure
Its flowing through my veins
Its hell to feel this way
Keep searching for my place
But here is where I find (I reside)
On the Battlefield in my mind

Bridge
No rest no, no peace, Yet I always hope for more
Wait on me if you will
Just don't let resentment build
I cant help but hurt to think that all this pain is caused by me
Do whatever you need to do
Just understand, if I could right now, I would be in love with you
Love is patient, it is kind, it just simply takes sometime
I wish I wasnt so damn complicated...

Cho:
I think Im fighting you
Yet I make no move
Angered with myself, yet I have no cure
Its flowing through my veins
Its hell to feel this way
But here is where I find (I reside)
On the Battlefield in my mind<>

Written by: ME a.k.a Firestarter
Currently listening : Nothing Compares 2 U By Sinead O'Connor

One Dimensional

February 5, 2007 - Monday
One Dimensional - Current mood: amused Category: Blogging

V.
Sitting in the coffee shop, reading literature yet you look lost
Can't comprehend anything, yet you still paid the cost
Ring it up, rack it up..place it on your perfect shelf
Rather look smarter than to be yourself
Perhaps it is just your funny way of proving i'm wrong
But I know the truth I knew all along
You are no deeper than a the shallowest song
You're just washed up, sold out, never gonna figure out
That the world is larger than you
Hahaa..

Cho.
If you don't know what this means
Im talking about you
Im not a bitch Im just telling the truth
You wont become anything, or be the real you
Cuz you are lost in the crowd, and never step out
You hide in others shadows, and hold your head proud
Anything "different" is offensive to you
You are just one dimensional fool

You would probably assume this was a compliment
Something friendly a damn sentiment
But you my friend are just ignorant
You're so perfect you think that you're heaven sent
But you're just one dimensional to me

V2.
Forget it you said it, dreams never come true
Why must you wear that? It looks foolish on you
Your blogs, your poetry.. are confusing as hell
Your friends act too crazy you're outta control
Don't you know you make a fool of us all?
Step back and look pretty, do what you do best
But what you don't know is you just failed the test
I do what I want, I go where I go.
Im one independent free thinking girl
I am, perhaps I am
Hahah….

Cho.
If you don't know what this means
Im talking about you
Im not a bitch Im just telling the truth
You wont become anything, or be the real you
Cuz you are lost in the crowd, and never step out
You hide in others shadows, and hold your head proud
Anything "different" is offensive to you
You are just one dimensional fool

You would probably assume this was a compliment
Something friendly a damn sentiment
But you my friend are just ignorant
You're so perfect you think that you're heaven sent
But you're just one dimensional to me

Bridge
Im sorry if these words are confusing for you
You will never understand someone like me
So I say, just go ahead follow
I'll be the girl who leads
I will be what I want to be
No other person will be as happy as me
Im not one dimensional
Your one dimensional
One dimensional to me
One Dimensional - written by ME

Bitten by the Kitten

January 8, 2007 - Monday
Bitten by the Kitten Category: Blogging
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Ahhh…Bitten by the kitten.
And you were infected deeply

What is one to do now?
Retracting her claws, teeth clenched
She stretches out, and repositions her body
with the flick of a claw a pink strand is moved from her face

However she is Pondering now…dangerously
Once she deliberates, the game is over
She is slipping back into a reoccurring nightmare
No longer able to ignore

Tap, tap, tap
Flipping her tail in a fickle manner
Edgy and distressed with confusion
An unsettling place for anyone to reside very long

Inhale, exhale
Something so simple, seems like such a task
Pupils now dilated, her brow hangs heavy over her almond eyes
A part of her is ready to rip her way out, at your expense

Her large paws grip the ground beneath her as she stands
Eyes darting around the room, stomach aroused with a selfish hunger
It is easier to be distant, than close
Easier to be cold, than to be warm

Licking her lips around the raw edges of her mouth
I wonder who will be the next prey?
hmmmm
And so does she. Chilling to think it might be you

Or are you the predator?
Is she entangled in her own trap of mind?
Is her anguish a product of your intensity?..
Questions that remain unanswered

Step in closer to her, you know you want to touch the softy silky fur
But she is watching you from across the room
Will she allow you to be close?
Close enough for you to feel the warmth of her breath?

No. How foolish, she has been this way for so long
It is a game she plays, 2 steps forward, 4 steps back
no, 5 steps back.
Maybe even 6, seems to be her lucky number

To pursue such a creature is foolish
Put yourself out there, tame the wild beast
Perhaps you wont finish last this time, perhaps you will
Hahhah, not trying to mock you..but it is rather amusing

Tap tap tap, her tail is flipping rapidly now
Just as you reach out to calm her
She claws. In one flash, your flesh is shred
You are bleeding, and she has disappeared.. you moved to swiftly

You had been kind to her, nurturing
Why would she harm you?
It is in her nature to be that way, wild and free
Yet you are confused and angered by her unwillingness to simply trust

As she remains in hiding, you wipe the blood that is trickling down your arm
She isn't coming out now, you exposed her weaknesses
It is up to you to learn this lesson
Move on, there are other Kittens out there.

Goodbye kitten. Goodbye.

My Intoxicated Thoughts

December 5, 2006 - Tuesday
My Intoxicated Thoughts Current mood: numb Category: Blogging

Wish upon a shooting star, wish for something deep, wish for something real.
Reach out in vain with my hand, but I know just like fulfillment, the star cannot be grasped.
In despite of my reality I extend my fingers, closing my eyes, I pretend to have control of my destiny.
Yet I feel nothing. I am immersed with the feelings of emptiness I possess. My life is so surreal, vacant at times, the void temporarily filled.
However, no regrets now, moving forward against the grain, yet going with the flow, I learn something new about myself each day.
Growing stronger, harsher, softer, wiser. Unashamed by my abrasiveness, my presumptuous nature.
I know only I can assume control, only I can slow the rollercoaster ride. Entertaining this chaos is becoming second nature to me.
Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe deep. Perhaps tomorrow will set me free from that which plagues me.
Until then, I will sip my wine and dream.
*ciao
-c