Wake Up Call

That eerie cold sensation just floods over me
I can't breathe
I cant inhale
If I do I may collapse

Cry for me
Cry because I can't
I just want to breakdown
I just want to crumble
I want to be fragile

Overwhelmed
Im all alone
Im really fucking alone
Baggage claim came, I claimed it all
Carry it with me wherever I go

Why can't I pick another flight?
Why do I have to lug this around?
NO ONE wants someone that is THIS less than perfect
I just want to rip every part of me
Shred it to pieces

Scream and cry

GOd do you fucking hate me?
Struggling and survival
Second nature
Fucking games
all a part of my fucking life.

I just want to cry.

My dream

Take away my dream
And please just kill me
Take away my dream
And let me bleed inside

Its so far away from me now
And unappealing
Just hand over me the key
And watch me die

Cho.
Why can’t I just fly away from here
So un-fulfilling
Can’t dry away my tears
They are drowning me
Watch my time as it flies by
So disappointing
Watch my time pass by
and watch me die.

V2.
Take away my dream
And fucking hate me
Take away my dreams
and strangle me in fear

Its so far away from me now
And unappealing
Just hand over me the key
Or please just shoot me

Cho.
Why can’t I just fly away from here
So un-fulfilling
Can’t dry away my tears
They are drowning me
Watch my time as it flies by
So disappointing
Watch my time pass by
and watch me die.

incomplete

Hold me close, I need to feel your breath just one more time
across my neck
Im one step closer
one day nearer
to the edge
I can barely see beyond the problems of today
I dont see the reason for tomorrow
Just let me bleed, and find relief

Im all alone in this hell I call life
I cant imagine one more day of this
How can you stand here by my side
and take it all in
Im dying within
and there is no one to save me now

Im praying for a better day
just a hope that things will be okay
but I can't get through this fucking fog
Its hindering my vision for a promise of tomorrow
and Im still dead in my yesterday
I hope you never have to feel this way
to live in this nightmare

Fall Like Me

Like the dying of the leaves
Im withering away
wandering aimlessly
floating down
just trying to ..live life
I suppose
I don't want to wake up
let me sleep..hibernate
just for the season

Out my window
the sun is still shining, the breeze is cool
chilling and calming
dead sound
Leaves dying...slowing letting go
and falling to the ground
I envy their strength
to just let go

Perhaps fall is my permanent season
Spring offers too much..hope
for brighter days
but with fall
you can sense the smell of winter
you know that the sun isn't shining brighter
its only growing darker
I am used to that feeling
when everything seems beautiful...
but ready to just
fall.