Drowning

Head above water, gasping for air
Please throw me a lifeline
a positive word
a happy memory
don't let me drown

My security, my safety
My family.
I needed more from you
But you could not bear it.
You said too much
More opinion, less fact.

I was swimming
I was gasping for air
Praying that you would be.
Just be capable.
Help me handle this storm
But....I sank

How could you despise?
How could say those things?
You tore out my safety net
My love, my family
when you spoke those horrible "truths".
I slipped further under

My family
I needed you
Just to lend an ear
Not to be one of them
Bitter, resentful
Always taking a seat in the judges chair
I needed a refuge
..
Instead of my refuge, my family...you let me drown